so many mamas tell me the things they can't wait for: they can't wait until the baby sleeps thru the night--they can't wait until the baby says "i love you"--they can't wait until the baby is potty trained, or goes to school, or dozens of other big things they can't wait for their babies to do.
i can wait. i'm not in a hurry to lose those precious moments in the dark, when it is just me and ella, like it was the first night of her life--snuggled together, holding and being held, rocking us both until we both fall back to sleep. i'm not in a hurry for her to leave behind her sweet baby babble, that i'm sure means SOMETHING but which for now can mean whatever i want it to mean. i'm not even in a hurry for her to be out of diapers, not in a hurry to fold up the sweet little diapers that i spent so much thought and energy and love to make just for her.
i can wait. please, somebody, make time slow down, my baby is growing up too fast, and i'm just not in a hurry.
